jess.shawn mendes, 24
United States
It's complicated
About me:
love?
idk what that is.
i only know pain.
i have no one close by my side,
they all left me.
yeah, i know.
i'm the biggest failure you'll ever meet.
i keep thinking about him i keep thinking about him i keep thinking about him i keep thinking about him he's moved on why can't i? it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts i thought he was the one, i KNEW it but now it's just hurting.
here's a fun fact about me: i always somehow mess everything up.
i never wanted it to be this way.
i miss it all, everything about the memories i had with him, but of course i'm just an idiot. trash. failure. a mess.
i used to feel it - the way love would get me through the day. now i don't - i just fall deeper into this curse that i call depression. i can't feel anything, no emotion no feelings. not ever since that day.
relationships and i have a bad history, so don't become close with me, i don't deserve it.
i should be the living definition of depression, my life is so full of it.
yeah.
i'm hurting.